Finding The True Self

Master teachers throughout history have repeatedly emphasized that part of our human experience is learning to live in alignment with our true, highest self while becoming mercifully aware of our false and limited separate self. This is the heroes journey and requires cultivating our ability to witness what is going on internally and externally without getting caught up in judgement and fear.

This type of journey has been confusing for me, as I thought it would be obvious and fixed as a fact with regards to what is the true and what is the false self. Then, it would just be a matter of choosing one and rejecting the other. In reality, this clinging and rejecting just creates more attachment which limits the ability to experience both the true and false self. Since no person in the infinity of existence has ever experienced either of these in the exact same way that I do, both have value as sources of inspiration, learning, opportunities for growth and forgiveness.

Poetry often gives me more of a feel than logical explanations. I wrote this poem entitled Finding the True Self. Enjoy.

 

"Finding the true self"

 

I am nothing, no-one, shadow that moves

across this world, defined by my contours

clinging to those edges I want

pushing away those that I fear

all in a frenzied work to stay alive.

 

Occasionally, I turn away from

the safety of my dark image

toward the light that shines upon

the fortress of a solid self.

 

Blinded and no longer able to see clearly

I quickly turn away from certain loss.

 

Despite this feeling of disconnection

I return more often to the blinding brightness

dying to the blackness

throwing open wide the doors and windows

of my fortress, allowing the light to shine through

and all around.

 

And in those shining moments

I am nothing and everything

no-one and everyone

nowhere and everywhere

light and shadow and neither

illumined.


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